What is the most dangerous thing you have ever done?

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I was an assassin, sugar. Am an assassin, even if I'm without clients at the moment. I understood danger. Danger understood me. Admittedly, I did what I could to reduce the danger as often as possible, of course. I'm not an idiot. I'm not a thrill seeker. Usually. When things were bad with Sadi, I avoided him. I liked to kill from afar, so no one could tie it to me. A death spell, usually, more than my knife, for all the blade's my favorite weapon. I admit there were some rooms that got splattered, occasionally. Sometimes... *shrugs* It happens.

But the most dangerous? Sugar, that's easy. I went with Daemon into Terreille. To Dorothea and Hekatah's camp. I wanted to help. They were--are--my family, too. Those bitches had them. They'd sent us proof of that in the form of Uncle Saetan's little finger. I couldn't just sit there and do nothing. But danger? You'd best believe that. They'd already captured and confined Lucivar and Uncle Saetan. They'd held Daemon for 1700 years. I could have killed Dorothea one on one. Could have sent Hekatah to her final death. I was stronger, and I wasn't Ringed, but I couldn't take them both out at once, and had no way to do it otherwise without alerting the other and signing everyone's death warrant.

Daemon found me before I had a chance to slip away. When I realized he was going, I told him to take me with him. He said I could be useful, but I had no idea what exactly he'd need me for. All the way to the outside of Dorothea's camp he was himself. Sadi. Then he changed. Darkness help me, I thought I'd danced with the Sadist before. I hadn't until then. I've never seen anyone change so quickly. I thought. I thought what he wanted me to think. I fell for the act. I doubted him.

He needed me to be convincing. Sugar, believe me. I was. Spitting mad, and angry enough at him to not feel the fear I should have felt. Angry that I thought he'd betrayed me. Angry that I'd believed him. Angry enough that I didn't trust my gut, didn't know. I faltered and the fact that that's what he needed me to do doesn't help.

I look back and I don't know if I could have carried the scene against Uncle Saetan's pain. His disillusionment. Would I have been able to see that and not offer him some comfort? And if there was any relief, from any of us, they would have sensed it.

But at the time, I was furious. We were there. Saetan and Lucivar were chained. He gave me to her, to Dorothea. Shadows of Marian and Daemonar, but sickening all the same, what was done to them. Tortured. Killed. And he was able to just smile that cold smile of his. I was crying and I didn't even realize it. For them. For him. Only when he came for me the next night did I think to fear for me. To finally actually think of the danger I was in. Somehow the chains and the guards and those spiteful bitches hadn't hammered through my head that fact. But the look in his eyes did.

Of course, that was the time I was safest. What they thought he did to me made sure of that. When he finally told me what he'd done. What he needed me to do. Where Marian and Daemonar were. Then came my part and the most danger. Then I had to act. Act like he'd raped me. Act like I was pregnant. Act like I was broken. Broken and bruised and torn apart emotionally and physically. No longer able to access my Jewels. Dorothea bought it.

Lucivar didn't. That fact, that he didn't buy it? Makes me know more than anything Daemon was right to not let me in on the plan.

But the rest of them bought it. *wry* The limping bits were real at least. I made him make sure of that. I think it hurt him more than me. I played my part. Lucivar played his, even after he realized what the game was. I almost got stopped at the end of the day. A guard, thinking to play with Sadi's leftovers. Hitting him with the Gray would have alerted everyone and the knife would have taken time I didn't have. Graysfang was there, sight-shielded. I didn't realize until he told me to drop. Then he ripped the guard's throat out.

We got Marian and Daemonar. We caught the Red. We went home. Lucivar followed. Then Saetan and Daemon.

There were consequences. There always are. Some of them ought not to have happened. Some of them had to.

And some of them need to stop.

He Served. He did what his Queen asked of him. He saved your fucking hides and you'd damn well better realize that and stop the pettiness. The coldness. Treating him like he did something unforgivable. He did what a Consort is supposed to do for his Queen and you all should be grateful he was able to do it so thoroughly and well.

And the next person to say differently? Will have me to answer to.

Then, sugar? We'll see what you have to say about dangerous situations.

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"Graysfang was more impressed by the pigeons." That mouth curved in an amused smile, remembering the chaos that had caused among the strolling aristos.

He'd probably be hearing about it.

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"They are very fat piegons," he laughed, lips tracing her jaw. "That can be impressive for some."

That, and tempting to chase.

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"Mmmhmm." She tilted her head for him, giving him better access. "They don't seem to get much exercise."

That had changed today.

Of course, a few of them hadn't made it.

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His lips found her collarbone. He adored her collarbone.

"People indulge them far too much."

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Her eyes fluttered closed and her pulse skipped a beat or two.

"Graysfang appreciated it..."

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His teeth brushed lightly against her skin.

"I imagine that he did."

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She whimpered a little, fingers curling in his hair.

"There might have been outrage."

It was only fair he was warned.

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"Outrage..."

He attempted to refocus on her actual words. He was sure they were important. But her skin tasted far too good.

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The skipping pulse sped up.

"Possibly a bit of carnage?"

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He laughed against her shoulder.

"How many did we loose?"

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She relaxed at the laughter, pressing a kiss to the top of his head.

"My estimate would be at least five."

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He simly chuckled, finding another bit of shoulder to kiss.

"There were far too many of them underfoot as it was."

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She grinned a little. "They were a lot of them, yeah."

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He kissed her again, more forceful this time.

He was done with piegons.

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She opened her mouth for him, kissing him back, yielding under him as she wrapped her arms around his neck and arched up into him.

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He pressed her deeper into the sofa, and pondered upstairs. Then wondered where Greysfang was.

He was definitely done with birds.

Done with everything but her, truthfully.

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She moaned a little, not caring where the wolf was. One foot stroked up his leg, teasing a little. Her hands slid through his hair, winding locks around her fingers.

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It was exactly for this reason -- this specific reason and this exact woman, he decided -- that he wore his hair as long as he did.

He was practically purring as he lifted her up into his arms.

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She smiled, capturing his lower lip between her teeth and sliding her tongue over it. Her fingers tugged at his hair, teasingly, holding on to him.

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Reaching their room, he slammed the door closed behind them for the sheer sound of it.

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She chuckled at that, her lips teasing over his jaw.

"Very impressive..."

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They were both on the bed now, his lips tracing her jaw.

"I thought so as well."

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She arched her neck for him, a little breathless as she slid her hands under his shirt, stroking the skin of his back.

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He could vanish their clothes. He knew that. But it was something he so rarely indulged in.

It was much more enjoyable to take his time. His hands slid to her hips, tracing over the skin there before inching her shirt up. Every single curve was perfect.

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She sighed softly at his touch, an almost whimpering sound. She slid one hand back to his hair, then traced the other one up and down his spine, pushing his shirt up further with each pass.