Surreal/Daemon chat log (July 19)
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birthrightgreen[After this and this.]
SURREAL:*half-wry, half serious* Being a whore was easier.
DAEMON: Yes, in some ways. At least I could splatter the bitches whenever I felt like it.
SURREAL:*blinks* Well. Yeah. That, too. *thoughtful pause* It's not very good etiquette to splatter your lover all over the walls, is it?
DAEMON: You assume I ever had any lovers.
SURREAL: No. I know you didn't. Just...in general.
DAEMON:*slight smile* I suppose you have a point. Splattering one's lovers tends to be rather permanent.
SURREAL:*soft sigh* Yeah.
DAEMON: Surreal...
SURREAL:*looks up* Yeah?
DAEMON: Do you care for him? Because if you do, I'll leave it be. I won't like it, and I can't promise I won't growl. Probably often. But I'll stay away from him.
SURREAL: *only slightly hesitant, rests her head on his shoulder* I like him. I could care for him.
DAEMON: *sighs* All right. Then I'll butt out. But if he looks like he's going to hurt you, or he treats you badly ... not roughly, badly, I do know the difference *wry* ... I'm going to show up and take you away, no questions asked.
SURREAL: *nods, quiet, maybe just a little tearful, but just a touch* I don't understand his world.
DAEMON: *strokes her hair gently* Nor do I, love. Nor do I. And I don't like being expected to fit in there.
SURREAL: I want to understand...but. Sadi...do you know of men who willingly take more than one lover? And...care for both?
DAEMON: *spark of interest* I've never ... if it happens with the Blood, it doesn't happen often. In our world, temper and power are too volatile for it to work easily or well. Can you see Lucivar tolerating another man around Marian?
SURREAL: *shakes her head* No. But that's...that's Marian's right. If she wanted. But...what if he wanted someone else. And her, too?
DAEMON: I don't know. If Lucivar and Marian both agreed on another ... Perhaps it could work. I just can't imagine either of them wanting someone else.
SURREAL: *sighs* Neither can I. But he....he has other lovers.
DAEMON: And that bothers you?
SURREAL: *shrugs* I don't know. It's more....what if he doesn't...ever care?
DAEMON: For you?
SURREAL: *nods*
DAEMON: That's a risk you take in any relationship, love.
SURREAL: No one ever has cared like that. Not for me.
DAEMON: *softly* So you're tired of taking chances?
SURREAL: How do I even know if it's worth it?
DAEMON: Worth taking the risk? Because perhaps he does care. And isn't that worth it? To finally have that?
SURREAL: *wry smile* I don't know.
DAEMON: Of course you don't. And if you don't take the chance, you won't ever know. *wry smile* And all knowledge is worth having.
SURREAL: I...*sighs, snuggles closer* Fine. You were right. I'm...scared.
DAEMON: *wraps his arms around her* It's okay to be scared. Just don't let it petrify you until you can't make a decision one way or another.
SURREAL: *nods, resting against him* He...it could be good. I think.
DAEMON: *tries not to grumble, really* Then you should take the chance, love.
SURREAL: *half-snarls, half-whimpers*
DAEMON: *dryly amused* Or you can sit here on my lap for the next several centuries and wonder about what might have been.
SURREAL: *pretends to consider this* I think there might be objections to that...
DAEMON:* smirks* We're talking about your love-life, not mine.
SURREAL: *grumbles* We should talk about yours, considering there's actually love involved.
DAEMON: *coolly* That topic is off-limits, I'm afraid.
SURREAL: *growls* Why is mine not?
DAEMON: *slight grin* It truly isn't fair, is it?
SURREAL: No.
DAEMON: I love you as a sister, my dear cousin, but I'm not discussing my love-life, sad state though it may be in, with you.
SURREAL: *wry smile* Not even for my fascinating insight into women?
DAEMON: *chuckles* Not even for that. There's a distinct possibility that I may know women better than you do. *grins at her*
SURREAL: In case you failed to notice, I am a woman...
DAEMON: *amused* Yes. I know.
SURREAL: *smirks* That gives me a natural advantage.
DAEMON: *laughs* Perhaps. I'm not convinced, however.
SURREAL: Hmph.
DAEMON: *chuckles again*
SURREAL: *scowls* You are by far the most irritating male I know.
DAEMON: *inclines his head* Thank you.
SURREAL: *huffs*
DAEMON: *gives her a squeeze*
SURREAL: *slight smile, then sobers* What if he....never cares?
DAEMON: Then you hurt for a while, you heal, and you pick yourself up and try again.
SURREAL: *eyes him doubtfully* There won't be a hunt for his balls?
DAEMON: *clenches his jaw* Are you going to insist?
SURREAL: *slightly vicious smile* As I said with Falonar...if I'd wanted him hurt or dead....
DAEMON: *dryly* I was under the impression that part of the reason that Falonar was unhappy was that you could actually carry out that threat. I also am under the impression that such isn't the case this time around.
SURREAL: *growls again*
DAEMON: *strokes her hair* I'll leave your Sam be, if that's your wish. *doesn't mention that he's agreeing under extreme protest*
SURREAL: *sits up, looking at him intently for a long moment, then nods* Thank you.
DAEMON: *mutters under his breath, giving her a smile* You're welcome.
SURREAL: *wry smile* This is hard enough without all of you growling at him every time I frown.
DAEMON: *grumps* But it's entertaining.
SURREAL: *stares* Growling at him is entertaining?
DAEMON: *suddenly realizes he should shut up now* Perhaps?
SURREAL: *low growl* You have been amusing yourself at my expense?
DAEMON: *suddenly serious* Never, Surreal.
SURREAL: *wary look*
DAEMON: *sigh* Consider it a fringe benefit for looking out for you.
SURREAL: *snorts* Fine.
DAEMON: *frown* You're what's important, Surreal. Your happiness.
SURREAL: *slight smile* Happiness?
DAEMON: *eye roll* You're quibbling over a word? How about contentment? Will that one do?
SURREAL: *nods* I know what that one feels like.
DAEMON: Then it's a start.
SURREAL: *silent a long while, just snuggled against him, thinking* Sadi?
DAEMON: *content to hold her* Hmm?
SURREAL: *softly* What if I...can't love? Like that.
DAEMON: You can.
SURREAL: How do you know? I've never...I've hated, all my life, you are the only male I've ever trusted. Ever cared for. Hatred has driven my life. I've never hoped for anything better. No dream of something more to wish for.
DAEMON: *sighs* Because, Surreal, if it weren't possible for you to love, you wouldn't want to. You wouldn't care whether Sam had another woman. You wouldn't have been hurt when Falonar started looking in another direction.
SURREAL:*glumly* Maybe it's just pride? My own far too high self-esteem?
DAEMON:*dryly* Unlikely, love.
SURREAL:*scowls* I'm used to men falling at my feet. Maybe I'm just...upset because Falonar didn't stay there.
DAEMON:*chuckles* No one says that that is wrong, either, you know. But that's part of it.
SURREAL: So, it may have no bearing on my ability to love at all. Merely annoyance at not being absolutely captivating.
DAEMON: *rolls his eyes, but not that she can see* I love you, Surreal.
SURREAL: And I love you, but not that way, so really that has no bearing on this discussion.
DAEMON: *laughs*
SURREAL: *pouts, but with a playful glint in her eyes*
DAEMON: *thumps her lightly* Just don't worry so much. See where it goes.
SURREAL: *nods, suspiciously acquiescent* All right.
DAEMON: *is definitely suspicious* That was easy.
SURREAL: *slight smirk* He's really good in bed.
DAEMON: *smirks back* I'm so happy for you.
SURREAL: Well. It's a reason to pursue it and see where it goes...
DAEMON: If that's the one you want to use, then by all means, it's a good reason.
SURREAL: *slight grumble* It's the reason I understand.
DAEMON: That works too.
SURREAL: *slightly relieved smile*
DAEMON: *cuddles her a bit*
SURREAL: *cuddles back* So you and Graysfang will stop plotting to be rid of him?
DAEMON: *whines almost like the wolf*
SURREAL: *chokes slightly*
DAEMON: I suppose I'll be good.
SURREAL: *kisses his cheek* Thank you.
DAEMON: *sighs* You're welcome
SURREAL:*half-wry, half serious* Being a whore was easier.
DAEMON: Yes, in some ways. At least I could splatter the bitches whenever I felt like it.
SURREAL:*blinks* Well. Yeah. That, too. *thoughtful pause* It's not very good etiquette to splatter your lover all over the walls, is it?
DAEMON: You assume I ever had any lovers.
SURREAL: No. I know you didn't. Just...in general.
DAEMON:*slight smile* I suppose you have a point. Splattering one's lovers tends to be rather permanent.
SURREAL:*soft sigh* Yeah.
DAEMON: Surreal...
SURREAL:*looks up* Yeah?
DAEMON: Do you care for him? Because if you do, I'll leave it be. I won't like it, and I can't promise I won't growl. Probably often. But I'll stay away from him.
SURREAL: *only slightly hesitant, rests her head on his shoulder* I like him. I could care for him.
DAEMON: *sighs* All right. Then I'll butt out. But if he looks like he's going to hurt you, or he treats you badly ... not roughly, badly, I do know the difference *wry* ... I'm going to show up and take you away, no questions asked.
SURREAL: *nods, quiet, maybe just a little tearful, but just a touch* I don't understand his world.
DAEMON: *strokes her hair gently* Nor do I, love. Nor do I. And I don't like being expected to fit in there.
SURREAL: I want to understand...but. Sadi...do you know of men who willingly take more than one lover? And...care for both?
DAEMON: *spark of interest* I've never ... if it happens with the Blood, it doesn't happen often. In our world, temper and power are too volatile for it to work easily or well. Can you see Lucivar tolerating another man around Marian?
SURREAL: *shakes her head* No. But that's...that's Marian's right. If she wanted. But...what if he wanted someone else. And her, too?
DAEMON: I don't know. If Lucivar and Marian both agreed on another ... Perhaps it could work. I just can't imagine either of them wanting someone else.
SURREAL: *sighs* Neither can I. But he....he has other lovers.
DAEMON: And that bothers you?
SURREAL: *shrugs* I don't know. It's more....what if he doesn't...ever care?
DAEMON: For you?
SURREAL: *nods*
DAEMON: That's a risk you take in any relationship, love.
SURREAL: No one ever has cared like that. Not for me.
DAEMON: *softly* So you're tired of taking chances?
SURREAL: How do I even know if it's worth it?
DAEMON: Worth taking the risk? Because perhaps he does care. And isn't that worth it? To finally have that?
SURREAL: *wry smile* I don't know.
DAEMON: Of course you don't. And if you don't take the chance, you won't ever know. *wry smile* And all knowledge is worth having.
SURREAL: I...*sighs, snuggles closer* Fine. You were right. I'm...scared.
DAEMON: *wraps his arms around her* It's okay to be scared. Just don't let it petrify you until you can't make a decision one way or another.
SURREAL: *nods, resting against him* He...it could be good. I think.
DAEMON: *tries not to grumble, really* Then you should take the chance, love.
SURREAL: *half-snarls, half-whimpers*
DAEMON: *dryly amused* Or you can sit here on my lap for the next several centuries and wonder about what might have been.
SURREAL: *pretends to consider this* I think there might be objections to that...
DAEMON:* smirks* We're talking about your love-life, not mine.
SURREAL: *grumbles* We should talk about yours, considering there's actually love involved.
DAEMON: *coolly* That topic is off-limits, I'm afraid.
SURREAL: *growls* Why is mine not?
DAEMON: *slight grin* It truly isn't fair, is it?
SURREAL: No.
DAEMON: I love you as a sister, my dear cousin, but I'm not discussing my love-life, sad state though it may be in, with you.
SURREAL: *wry smile* Not even for my fascinating insight into women?
DAEMON: *chuckles* Not even for that. There's a distinct possibility that I may know women better than you do. *grins at her*
SURREAL: In case you failed to notice, I am a woman...
DAEMON: *amused* Yes. I know.
SURREAL: *smirks* That gives me a natural advantage.
DAEMON: *laughs* Perhaps. I'm not convinced, however.
SURREAL: Hmph.
DAEMON: *chuckles again*
SURREAL: *scowls* You are by far the most irritating male I know.
DAEMON: *inclines his head* Thank you.
SURREAL: *huffs*
DAEMON: *gives her a squeeze*
SURREAL: *slight smile, then sobers* What if he....never cares?
DAEMON: Then you hurt for a while, you heal, and you pick yourself up and try again.
SURREAL: *eyes him doubtfully* There won't be a hunt for his balls?
DAEMON: *clenches his jaw* Are you going to insist?
SURREAL: *slightly vicious smile* As I said with Falonar...if I'd wanted him hurt or dead....
DAEMON: *dryly* I was under the impression that part of the reason that Falonar was unhappy was that you could actually carry out that threat. I also am under the impression that such isn't the case this time around.
SURREAL: *growls again*
DAEMON: *strokes her hair* I'll leave your Sam be, if that's your wish. *doesn't mention that he's agreeing under extreme protest*
SURREAL: *sits up, looking at him intently for a long moment, then nods* Thank you.
DAEMON: *mutters under his breath, giving her a smile* You're welcome.
SURREAL: *wry smile* This is hard enough without all of you growling at him every time I frown.
DAEMON: *grumps* But it's entertaining.
SURREAL: *stares* Growling at him is entertaining?
DAEMON: *suddenly realizes he should shut up now* Perhaps?
SURREAL: *low growl* You have been amusing yourself at my expense?
DAEMON: *suddenly serious* Never, Surreal.
SURREAL: *wary look*
DAEMON: *sigh* Consider it a fringe benefit for looking out for you.
SURREAL: *snorts* Fine.
DAEMON: *frown* You're what's important, Surreal. Your happiness.
SURREAL: *slight smile* Happiness?
DAEMON: *eye roll* You're quibbling over a word? How about contentment? Will that one do?
SURREAL: *nods* I know what that one feels like.
DAEMON: Then it's a start.
SURREAL: *silent a long while, just snuggled against him, thinking* Sadi?
DAEMON: *content to hold her* Hmm?
SURREAL: *softly* What if I...can't love? Like that.
DAEMON: You can.
SURREAL: How do you know? I've never...I've hated, all my life, you are the only male I've ever trusted. Ever cared for. Hatred has driven my life. I've never hoped for anything better. No dream of something more to wish for.
DAEMON: *sighs* Because, Surreal, if it weren't possible for you to love, you wouldn't want to. You wouldn't care whether Sam had another woman. You wouldn't have been hurt when Falonar started looking in another direction.
SURREAL:*glumly* Maybe it's just pride? My own far too high self-esteem?
DAEMON:*dryly* Unlikely, love.
SURREAL:*scowls* I'm used to men falling at my feet. Maybe I'm just...upset because Falonar didn't stay there.
DAEMON:*chuckles* No one says that that is wrong, either, you know. But that's part of it.
SURREAL: So, it may have no bearing on my ability to love at all. Merely annoyance at not being absolutely captivating.
DAEMON: *rolls his eyes, but not that she can see* I love you, Surreal.
SURREAL: And I love you, but not that way, so really that has no bearing on this discussion.
DAEMON: *laughs*
SURREAL: *pouts, but with a playful glint in her eyes*
DAEMON: *thumps her lightly* Just don't worry so much. See where it goes.
SURREAL: *nods, suspiciously acquiescent* All right.
DAEMON: *is definitely suspicious* That was easy.
SURREAL: *slight smirk* He's really good in bed.
DAEMON: *smirks back* I'm so happy for you.
SURREAL: Well. It's a reason to pursue it and see where it goes...
DAEMON: If that's the one you want to use, then by all means, it's a good reason.
SURREAL: *slight grumble* It's the reason I understand.
DAEMON: That works too.
SURREAL: *slightly relieved smile*
DAEMON: *cuddles her a bit*
SURREAL: *cuddles back* So you and Graysfang will stop plotting to be rid of him?
DAEMON: *whines almost like the wolf*
SURREAL: *chokes slightly*
DAEMON: I suppose I'll be good.
SURREAL: *kisses his cheek* Thank you.
DAEMON: *sighs* You're welcome
